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I just want to let you know I visited East Ethnia again.

I posted an apology to the post where he said he was leaving.

No, I didn't do this because of the "Bosniak" hits I've been taking lately.

I've been thinking about it lately and realize this world has to many enemies. I hate it when I contribute to the negitivity of the world and wanted him to know I had no hard feelings if he did leave.

John.
 

good man! I saw that post and I'm glad you did that! and you are right that the world has too many enemies in it.
It takes strenght to do what one can by oneself to not make more enemies in the world, it is the hardest thing human beings ever do.
We had a long talk about that sort of thing in my class for Medical Interpreters. I'm going to be posting on that tomorrow when I'm less dog tired. Got in kind of late.
 

You know it's amazing how this interent works when I actually take the time to contemplate it.

Tonight I have noticed that even though we are thousands of miles apart we are both connected to the same internet reading, updating and commenting on same thing just about at the same time.

I read your response to my question about being a war criminal and I've got to admit that I started crying mid way through.

I've been crying alot lately. That's a good thing though. I've learned in "threapy" crying does heal some wounds and prepares you for future scars.

I don't know, maybe I'm stupid or what ever. All I know is I fear for the Balkan's future. I fear for their future not because they are Serbs or Bosniaks, but because they are human just the same as you and I.

Today I gave away my breakfast to a mom and small child who didn't have a breakfast. Yes I was hungry but God knows I could afford to miss a meal or two.

I actually felt sad as I sensed a sense of shame and thanks at the same time from the mother. How long would the two of them went without eating if I wouldn't have given them my MRE? I don't even know.

What I do know is hunger. I sensed they were hungry and offered them my food.

I've actually got tears in my eyes right now, not "balling-baby-crying tears, rather tears of experience and roughness, if these are even the correct words to share.

I think tomorrow I'll share a dream and why I think it feels good to die.

Night!

John.
 

Haveing had to do the American equivelant of begging, haveing had to be on welfare when my kids were little, and haveing had to use food banks in the past I related very strongly to that last post of yours.
I have a feeling that right now you are in the Eastern world and from your words it looks like you are probably someplace where most people are Muslims. Did you know it is Ramzan? That is when Muslim people are supposed to fast. They are supposed to exercise a lot of self restraint, not just food, water,smokeing, sex, but they are supposed to exercise discipline on how they speak.
I think that it's generally pretty good for them, and during my marriage I noticed that people who were fasting seemed happy, at least the ones who really believed in it did.
It's supposed to among other things put them in touch with hunger and thirst. If a person never feels hunger and thirst they are not going to understand just how BAD it feels. Some people never have experienced either. Some people don't know what deprivation is.
Oh I was going to say, I read the commenter, and yes that was really rude, they can't have read everything.
I don't agree with every single solitary thing you say, but you do have a perspective that is useful and I have learned a lot reading what you have to say.
You are right about one thing, all three sides do have pretty terrible hatred. Younger people especially. The very old are the least likely to be like that, the most likely to have other experiences and to think things over.
Bosnia Hercegovina is a little unique in another way, of all the places that used to be in Yugoslavia, two have the most varied and diverse populations, Bosnia Hercegovina and Macedonia have the most diverse populations. Bosnia Hercegovina had historically the highest rate of intermarriage of all the former republics of what used to be Yugoslavia. So what happened there really and truely was a Civil War pretty similar to our own. Imagine if you were the son of a mixed marriage, your mother was a Serb and your dad was a Muslim, or your father was a Croat but he was half Serb and your mother was from a Muslim family, imagine how hard it would be to pick a side. because I can tell you, someone unable to pick a side in that kind of situation is going to be dead long before a person of 'pure' ethnicity! In a situation of civil war, moderates die first,people of mixed ancestry die first and the reason is that people who fall in the middle in these ways are the only ones with a prayer of crossing borders and bridgeing gaps.
That is what makes what happened in BiH worse in many ways than things that happened in other Balkans countries.
You know a lot of people don't hate anyone the way they hate their own family! sad but true.